a few days before move-out

friday's move-out day.

for the last several days, and i know for the next several (at least) i'm going to be aching sad. when i'm at home, i just want to touch and hold and spend time with john. does that mean that i really want to be with him and don't want to break up after all? probably not. more likely, i'm just feeling lonely and hopeless. like everyone else has got it together, and has the love of their lives, and i'm giving it up. i feel really mope-y. i'm not first priority in anyone's life anymore. that's lonely.